Saturday, November 15, 2008

Day 15: Finding my Voice

I have a fear of speaking my truth. Of being seen. This fear goes way back and it stifles me some. It holds me back. I want to find my voice. Boy, do I want to find my voice. One of the ways I want to find my voice is in writing. I've dabbled in it for a long time. I started writing what I called a novel when I was 11. After I'd written some amount of pages, I think it probably brought me too close to feelings I couldn't afford then, and I threw it away. I wish I had it back now. I picked up writing again in my early 20's, writing articles for university newspapers, newsletters of various sorts, poetry; then more recently, a bit of blogging, and a lot of journalling along the way. Writing here for Soul Coaching every day has strengthened my desire to write more again.. to get good at it, or try to anyhow. So I want to state my intention to do that. To find the way and means to practice my writing, get support for it, and hone my skill at it. In the spirit of that, I thought I would write a brief synopsis of the book that I would like to write. Here's a working title: Living the wild: Skills, Techniques, and the Spirit of Somatic-Expressive Arts Therapy. I first have to make up what I mean by Somatic-Expressive arts therapy though! I want to fashion my own mix of transpersonal, relational, somatic, and arts therapy practices/perspectives into a practice that supports people to move, paint, scream, cry, laugh, sing, talk, become self-aware, and become whole. This is the most powerful, meaningful, and most fun thing I can think of to do for my life's work. And I want to write about it. It is my way of singing to the world.

9 comments:

Genie Sea said...

Sounds fascinating, Sandra! I can't wait to read it :)

I love how your post when from the closed position of fear to open empowerment! :)

Danette said...

That is the book I would pick up right this moment and devour. I am stirring in the silences of voice, and longing for uninhibited sound.

TheModernGoddess said...

Here's to finding your voice through whatever method suits you. Blessings, Nicole x

http://themoderngoddess.wordpress.com/

Serena Lewis said...

Power to you, Sandra! You can do it!

love, light and peace,
serena

Jamie Ridler said...

Powerful!

For some reason, as I was reading your post, I kept imagining you singing. I couldn't shake the image and couldn't understand why - until the last line!

Reading this post and witnessing your intention is an honour, Sandra. I'm imagining your beautiful book and all its wisdom. And I definitely want to get your signature on my copy :)

Allison said...

I want to chime in with others in that I would read such a book :] Not only that, but devour it!

Sandra said...

You're all so sweet, thank you :)

Suzie Ridler said...

Oh sing! Please sing! It sounds like a fascinating writing project and I agree, SC has helped writing for a lot of us and you can do this. I believe in you! I enjoy your voice and want more.

Jamie Lees said...

Be happy to be your first guinea pig patient!
Great post.