Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Day 11: Relationships
The first thing I thought of this morning when reading about today's exercises on relating was how I was relating to my dog. For example, this morning when I don't feel like playing and he's there with his squeaky toy, shoving it into my thigh (didn't you just go out for an hour and a half walk?) and I sigh. Go away. Shove him away. And I thought - this isn't how I want to be relating. Sighing, feeling negative, getting uptight about what is a minor discomfort (lack of peace when I'd prefer it). Then something shifted. I just threw the toy for him even though I didn't feel like it. It sounds so tiny, this shift, but I think it may stay with me. I noticed a softening in my voice around certain things throughout the day in a new way. And I'm hoping this will extend to my children, too, who know I can be too stern sometimes. I love them all and want to treat them well. Really, this is all I want in my life. To treat others very well. It is my most deeply held desire. Ideal and practice can take a while to close the gap between, but I inched a tiny inch more today.
May you experience the kindness you deserve in life.